He

He is someone that I love so much
Someone that I knew will take a good care of me
I love him since the first day I met him
And deep in my heart I wish he will be my love forever


He is the one that I pray
In every single prayer for him to be my husband
I love him every single seconds of my life
Love that I can't deny at all


He is my love
The only one that I love
For the past seven years
I wish he know how strong my love for him


I miss him so much
From the first day we met each other
And the feelings never ever reduce
Until now and forever

Once

As you shifting
You will begin to realize
You are not the same person you used to be


The things you used to tolerate have now become intolerable
Where you once remained quiet you are now speaking your truth
Where you once battled and argued you are now choosing to remain silent


You are beginning to understand the value of your voice
And there are some situations that no longer deserve your time, energy and focus

That Weird Feeling

It's strange.


Since yesterday, I keep thinking. Actually what is my actual feelings? Then, I realized that I don't have any feeling at all.


Normally, when I'm thinking on something, it's either mad or sad. I can be really mad or I can cry a lot. But now, none. I don't feel anything. Nothing. This is weird. Really weird.


I don't feel sad. I don't feel mad. I don't feel frustrated either feel happy at all. None. Totally nothing.


Then, I realized this is the same feeling that I felt 7 years ago. Exactly the same feeling. Feeling of losing everything.


Now, there is one thing that keep coming in my mind. Who will be the one who grasp my hand tightly? Is it still you?

Different

You and me
We are different
I'm scared

I'm Scared

I'm scared. Really scared when I heared that voice. My heart beat fast and my body shacking a lot. I'm totally scared. But, how should I inform him?

Ya Allah, please remove the fear from me.

Ketakutan

Melihat namanya tertera
Ada bermacam rasa
Perasaan itu berubah
Menjadi satu ketakutan
Yang berpanjangan

Melihat namanya tertera
Terasa nadi terhenti seketika
Darah tidak mengalir
Kerana ketakutan itu
Menguasai diri

Satu persatu bicara
Terimbas di pandangan mata
Cuba untuk dilupakan ia
Namun tidak berjaya
Kerana ketakutan mengatasi segalanya

Mungkin saja semuanya
Tidak seperti sediakala
Mungkin saja perlukan masa
Untuk mencuba redakan ia
Perasaan yang melanda dalam jiwa

Mungkin saja
Kerana ia sangat terkesan
Dalam jiwa
Sehingga tidak mampu
Untuk dilepaskan dari minda

Sungguh
Ada rasa sesak dalam dada
Ada rasa pedih tidak terhingga
Cukup buat diri
Tidak mampu lagi berkata-kata

Kiss The Rain

 Keep listening to this song since yesterday as I really need it so much. I need the relaxing, peaceful and calm song in my mind. Don't want to think of anything for a while. Perhaps I should go for hiatus for a while.